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We're both in 8th grade when i first saw you

You're very frail but still awesome.

You proved your love in ridiculous way, but you're still brave in my eyes

and you're my little superhero...

who always there for me no matter what.

 I wish i could hug you tightly

because you're the only guy whom i want to marry with

and you're my future

then you'd be that guy who kiss my forehead before i sleep.

AND YOU KNOW THAT'S TRUE

but yeah, it was just memory and dream

AND I KNOW IT

Disaster - Jojo

I'm trying not to pretend,
It won't happen again and again like that.
I never thought it would end,
'cause you got up in my head, in my head like that.
And made me happy, baby, love is crazy,
So amazing, but it's changing, rearranging,
I don't think I can take anymore

[Chorus:]
'Cause the walls burned up and our love fell down,
And it turned into whatever, now we're saying never.
Feel the fire 'cause it's all around,
And it's burning for forever and always.
You gotta let it go the other way
And live for another day,
'cause it ain't the same, my baby.
Watch it all falling to the ground.
No happy ever after ‒ just disaster.

I didn't want it this way,
I only wanted to say I loved you right.
But now you're walking away,
And leaving me here to stay,
So foolish of me to wait for you to realize
All the things I gave you, made you,
Changed you, your dreams came true
When I met you, now forget you,
Don't want anymore

[Chorus]
'Cause the walls burned up and our love fell down
And it turned into whatever, now we're saying never.
Feel the fire 'cause it's all around,
And it's burning for forever and always.
You gotta let it go the other way
At least for another day,
Cause it ain't the same, my baby.
Watch it all falling to the ground.
No happy ever after ‒ just disaster.

You shot the bullet, you shot the bullet that killed me,
Not feeling my heart beat, and now it's dying.
I am through it, I-I am through the agony,
Now my eyes are drying, drying,
No more crying,
Lying's just a game.
So disaster strikes,
And I'm alright
'cause my love's on its way... yeah
Burning up forever and always... yeah

[Chorus:]
'Cause the walls burned up, and our love fell down,
And it turned into whatever, now we're saying never.
Feel the fire 'cause it's all around,
And it's burning for forever and always.
You gotta let it go the other way
At least for another day,
'Cause it ain't the same, my baby.
Watch it all falling to the ground.
No happy ever after ‒ just disaster.

'Cause the walls burned up, and our love fell down,
And it turned into whatever, now we're saying never.
Feel the fire 'cause it's all around,
And it's burning for forever and always.
You gotta let it go the other way
At least for another day,
'Cause it ain't the same, my baby.
Watch it all falling to the ground.
No happy ever after ‒ just disaster, just disaster

Burning for forever and always, yeah.

Jar Of Hearts

No, I can't take one more step towards you
'Cause all that's waiting is regret
Don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore
You lost the love I loved the most

I learned to live half alive
And now you want me one more time

[Chorus:]
And who do you think you are?
Runnin' 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are?

I hear you're asking all around
If I am anywhere to be found
But I have grown too strong
To ever fall back in your arms

I've learned to live half alive
And now you want me one more time

[Chorus:]
And who do you think you are?
Runnin' 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are?

Dear, It took so long just to feel all right
Remember how to put back the light in my eyes
I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed
'Cause you broke all your promises
And now you're back
You don't get to get me back

And who do you think you are?
Runnin' 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Don't come back at all

[Chorus:]
And who do you think you are?
Runnin' 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
Don't come back for me
Don't come back at all

Who do you think you are?


Who do you think you are?


Who do you think you are?!!!

Breakaway

Grew up in a small town
And when the rain would fall down
I'd just stare out my window
Dreaming of what could be
And if I'd end up happy
I would pray (I would pray)

Trying hard to reach out
But when I tried to speak out
Felt like no one could hear me
Wanted to belong here
But something felt so wrong here
So I prayed I could break away

[Chorus:]
I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes til' I touch the sky
And I'll make a wish
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget all the ones that I love
I'll take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway

Wanna feel the warm breeze
Sleep under a palm tree
Feel the rush of the ocean
Get onboard a fast train
Travel on a jet plane, far away (I will)
And breakaway

[Chorus]

Buildings with a hundred floors
Swinging around revolving doors
Maybe I don't know where they'll take me but
Gotta keep moving on, moving on
Fly away, breakaway

I'll spread my wings
And I'll learn how to fly
Though it's not easy to tell you goodbye
I gotta take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget the place I come from
I gotta take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway, breakaway, breakaway

Stuck in The Moment - Justin Bieber

With you,
With you,
I wish we had another time,
I wish we had another place...

Now Romeo & Juliet,
bet they never felt the way we felt,
Bonnie & Clyde,
Never had to hide like
We do,
We do...

You and i both know it can't work,
It's all fun and games,
'til someone gets hurt,
And i don't,
I won't let that be you...

Now you don't wanna let go,
And i don't wanna let you know,
There might be something real
between us two, who knew?
And we don't wanna fall but,
We're tripping in our hearts
and it's reckless and clumsy,
And i know you can't love me, hey...

I wish we had another time,
I wish we had another place,
But everything we have
is stuck in the moment,
And there's nothing my heart can do
(Can Do),
To fight with time and space 'cause,
I'm still stuck in the moment with you...

See like Adam & Eve,
Tragedy was a destiny,
Like Sunny & Cher,
I don't care,
I got you baby...

See we both,
Fightin' every inch of our fiber,
'cause in a way,
It's gonna end right but,
We are both too foolish to stop...

Now you don't wanna let go,
And i don't wanna let you know,
There might be something real
between us two, who knew?
And we don't wanna fall but,
We're tripping in our hearts
and it's reckless and clumsy,
And i know you can't love me, hey...

I wish we had another time,
I wish we had another place,
But everything we have
is stuck in the moment,
And there's nothing my heart can do
(Can Do),
To fight with time and space 'cause,
I'm still stuck in the moment with you...

See like,
Just because this cold cold world
saying we can't be,
Baby, we both have the right to decide we,
And i ain't with it,
And i don't wanna be so old and gray,
And it isn't 'bout these better days,
But convince just telling us to let go,
So we'll never know...

I wish we had another time,
I wish we had another place,
'cause everything we did,
And everything we have
is stuck in the moment,
Yeaaaaaaaaahhh...
oh no no!

I wish we had another time,
I wish we had another place,
But everything we have
is stuck in the moment,
And there's nothing my heart can do,
(Nothing my heart can do),
To fight with time and space 'cause,
I'm still stuck in the moment with you,
Yeah, whoa whoa...

Terserah - Glenn Fredly

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Get well soon, grandma

Sebenernya, agak males juga sih ngeblog. tapi tangan rasanya gatel kalo gak posting ._.
ga ada unsur kegalauan dalam posting ini, malek ah galau mulu u,u
okay, just keep typing.

aku memiliki seorang nenek. meskipun sudah tua, nenek masih terlihat cantik dan gagah. nenekku ini adalah ibu dari ayahku. dan hanya nenek inilah satu-satunya 'nenek' yang ku miliki *miris*
jujur saja, nenekku yang satu ini tergolong nenek yang cerewet dan hobinya hanya marah-marah saja. jarang sekali aku melihatnya tersenyum. pernah suatu ketika aku menonton televisi, nenek ikut duduk dan juga ikut nonton. saat itu film yang kutonton adalah film Spongebob, hehe :p. nenek tertawa puas meskipun aku tak tau apa yang sedang nenek tertawakan -_-v. nenek memang hobi ketawa sendiri kalo lagi nonton kartun, dan nenek juga sering emosi sendiri kalo lagi nonton sinetron --"
sekarang nenek jatuh sakit. ia terbaring lemah di atas tempat tidurnya yang setelah hampir dua minggu dirawat dirumah sakit. nenek yang sekarang sangat berbeda. waktu itu aku pergi ke kamarnya untuk melihat keadaannya. setelah hampir satu bulan baru kali ini aku menjenguknya - maaf nek :(.
aku duduk di samping nenek. nenek menatapku lemah dengan tatapan kosong. aku memegang dan mencium tangannya. nenek membalas genggaman tanganku, meletakkan di dadanya dan diciumnya pula tanganku. aku pun tak kuasa membendung air mata - mengingat hanya dialah nenek yang kupunya.
naifnya diriku, aku rindu sosoknya. aku rindu dengan 'ocehan'nya. aku rindu nenek. nenek cepet sembuh ya :')

-with love-

Abstrak

Aku rapuh. Entah dimana kebahagiaan itu berada sekarang. Hanya gundah dan gelisah yang hilir mudik difikiranku. Ingin ku berteriak, ingin ku utarakan semuanya, inginku lepaskan semua rasa menjengkelkan ini. Jika saja aku dapat melupakan semuanya, aku spam semua yang tak perlu hingga rasa bahagia itu kembali meski tak tau apa sebabnya aku dapat berbahagia.

Abstrak. Kata itu lah yang tepat untuk menjelaskan isi dari post kali ini. Aku pun tak peduli bagaimana tak jelasnya post ini. Yang aku fikirkan sekarang adalah isi dari hatiku yang sebenarnya. Jika kita bicara tentang hati, itu berarti kita bicara tentang perasaan. Dan satu-satunya yang tak bisa dibohongi adalah perasaan. Dan jika kita bicara tentang kebohongan dan perasaan, maka sulit bagiku untuk mendeskripsikan yang sebenarnya. sangat tak jelas-

Baiklah. aku hanya manusia biasa. aku perempuan. aku punya perasaan. punya hati. terserah mau bilang aku agresif, aku terlalu posesif, dan sebagainya, karna inilah aku. aku yang sebenarnya. aku pun tak peduli dengan gengsi. tak ada gunanya lagi bagiku jika raga ini telah rapuh. aku lelah terus memendam rasa yang tak karuan ini. aku lelah berfikir positif jika kenyataanya perasaanku lah yang selalu menang. aku lelah menceritakan kepedihanku kepada orang lain. aku lelah berpura-pura tegar di depan orang-orang terutama sahabatku. aku lelah menjadi orang yang selalu pasrah didepan mereka. aku lelah jika setiap waktu terus memikirkannya. aku lelah memendam emosi. dan aku lelah menjadi aku yang bukan diriku. konyol memang, tapi inilah kenyataannya.

Peduli itu sakit. mungkin, aku memang sok peduli, aku sok sabar. tapi lagi-lagi, perasaan tak bisa dibohongi. aku jatuh padanya. dan kubiarkan aku jatuh lebih dalam, awalnya menyenangkan, namun lama-lama...................................entahlah.

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